Have you tried the distractions bit?
I find tetris very addictive?
or even the grow cube thingy that someone posted:
http://www.eyezmaze.com/eyezblog_en/...e.html#monster
You said that your mood drops, and then goes back up, but how often does it happen?
Perhaps the cris team had an emergency they had to go to, so you might be seen slightly later than they thought they would be able to get to see you?
And same for your doc, she may have had someone seriously ill.
Please stay safe hun
xx