I am home for a few hours. So so boring on the ward. There isn't much to do apart from watch tv and sleep. I'm really not managing to do the groups as it either doesn't appeal to me or I'm just not up for it.
I don't often have the supplement drinks. Think I've had about 3.
The Risperidone is giving me postral hypotenstion big time.
Even my reasting BP yest was 80/54.
They say I'm dehydrated but I can't be, I mean I'm drinking loads, due to borden. More than I drink at home. I reakon about 8 cups a day instead of my normal 3.
I have SI's once. And the Dr stiched it without using lidocaine. again. (he did this in Feb) I at first refused saying I wanted it to be numbed first and I was told I would have to make my own way to A&E. (£15 taxi fare each way I guessing)
So I allowed him to stich it. OMFG it hurt.
I found out yest a girl cut nd was taken to hosp for stiching... So I'm gonna talk to a Mind advocate about this as it isn't right.
I have dissociated a few times and they have seen the full whack of it and the problems the voices give me. (hence being on risperdone now)
I was so disociated (according to them) I couldn't hold a cup without spilling drink and I was just so quiet. Like whispering. Very strange.
I had ward round yesterday and was convinced I'd be discharged but nope! I better be next week as I'm going to Scotland for xmas on the 19th!
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