sweetsunday

I'm not sure what to do.

Basically, most days I'm fine. Just your average person, with average mood swings and stuff.

But then every so often, for a couple of days, or a week or even months at a time, I get really really sad and miserable. Like kill-yourself miserable. I hate everyone, don't smile, don't talk, just cry a lot and think about ways to kill myself. EDIT I won't actually kill myself because I know that it's just a 'phase' that I have every so often, and that I'll be better soon :S so there's no actual danger. But still. It's just not that great thinking that way.

And then suddenly, I'll be fine again. Is this normal?

My boyf said to me last night that I was in the driving seat in our relationship, that when I'm happy I make us happy and when I'm sad, I make us sad. And he finds it difficult to cope.

But I don't know what to do. I mean, is this just normal? Or is it more? I don't want to go to the doctors because, I mean, this is probably just nothing. But...? :S

Please help. Any advice/ understanding etc very gratefully received. Thanks x