Thanks, it helps me writing about it to someone.
The first thing a male voice said, was: You are an idiot. At first I thought the CD which I was listening to said that, but I replayed it, and it didn't say it. The song was in english and the voice in german, so it wouldn't be matching anyway.
Then later on I heard someone coughing, but I was alone at home, so I grabbed a knife and searched the house, but I couldn't find were that coughing came from. I also heard some music playing, which couldn't have been mine. A bit later it just called 'Papa' (which is german for dad) once.
And more recently the shower was saying something but I couldn't understand it.
Does it get worse with time? Do they get louder?
I have an appointment with my psychiatrist on friday, and at earlierst I can reach her per phone on Tuesday. I just don't want things to get out of control. And I don't want to take anti-psychotics again. I already increased my risperidone to 1mg, but I suspect that I have to go much higher to stop it. And if I go higher I get very annoying side-effects.
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