[Elysium.]

Hey, i think i remember you. Your screen name rings a bell anyhow. Glad you see your okay . Well done on posting by the way. I know it can be scary when you havn't posted in a while.

Hunny, please try to remember change IS scary. When it comes to someone putting on HEALTHY lbs that sufferes with an eating disorder, it is going to be hard to accept for a while the way you look. Knowing that your weight isn't what is was before. But you have to try to see past that. You are worth soooo much more than your weight. You have to try to poke those thoughts in the eyes when they tell you "Oh, you're not the same weight as you was before. So therfor your fat". You are not fat! I have no idea what your weight is, but i can promise you' you are not anywhere near fat, and i can tell you that with such confidence because your in treatment, and when your in treatment, people only want to help you get better.. Get healthy! nothing else. I know that's hard to believe because you said "this is the highest i have EVER IN MY WHOLE ENTIRE LIFE been!!!" but that doesn't mean that you are instantly fat. It just means that you was ill for a very long time. You should feel proud of yourself, for walking the scary road to recovery. Just muscle down those obsticles that are thrown onto your path on the way through it.

I am so glad you are getting better.. just remember though, your thoughts can only get inside your head so far. Don't let it hinder your recovery. You're doing absolutly fantastic. =D

Much love
Caz
xxx