It was good for you to be able to tell him how you feel as it may have released a lot of tension and hurt for you. But I dont know what your motives were for sending him this. There is no point in regretting sending it because you cant change the past, all you can do is deal with the consequences whatever they may be. Did you want to shock him, do you still want to be with him, I dont know. But you have to recognise that there is no more future for you and him now and that you have to stop letting this rule your life. You have made the choices cut and to OD, he didnt make those decisions for you, that was the way you dealt with it at the time and Im not criticising you for it. But now is the time to move on from what happened and put it in the past. You need to say to yourself that you are going to be in control now and you are going to live your life. It may be that you need a bit of help with than professionally and there is nothing wrong with asking for some help, it is a sign of strength to ask for help.
Whatever you decide, try and make a positive decision, you dont need to give your life to him anymore than you already have, you are worth so much more and your life is so important.
If you need anything, my inbox is always open.
Take care
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