My dearest Mario, I miss you so much. I keep thinking that we just havent seen you for a long time.
I wish you could see Anna now, shes so beautiful. Its not fair that you died, its not fair that you left us, but, as hard as it is I can cope. What I cant cope with is the fact that you had to go three months before your first and only child to actually live was born. How could they take you away then, how could they. You lost Rebecca...you thought that was it, you had lost your chance, but then there was Anna. She was a little miracle...it was all going so well, our perfect holiday...and then they snatched you away.
I will never forgive them, him...whoever it is that decides to do these things. I miss you so so much, I miss you, I miss how tall you were, I miss you sneaking us treats without Claire knowing, I miss your laugh, I miss how happy you were, I miss the thought of how good things were going to be.
I hope you can see us from up there, I hope you can see how beautiful Anna is, I hope you can see how strong Claire has been. Annas fish Nemo-Poppy-Nemo died...she told me he had gone to heaven to be with Daddy. I hope thats true. I love you, I miss you.
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