[OhSoAvalanche]

i dont think i can make it through this very rediculous holiday.
recently my therapist decided i guess that i most likely have borderline personality disorder. i havent started any sort of treatment yet. so that mixed with my eating disorder on well thanksgiving really sucks. this year everythign is diffeant and my father is more distant than ever. i dont know how im going to make it through today without doing anything dangerous. i feel like before i get a chance to leave and go to my friends' house for dessert ill end up in a bathroom cutting. im scared.