Well she chosen....... me........
but here is the thing.....I've spent i dunno how long now but i've spent so long now with bad things happening to me a massive part of me is thinking this is all a dream.....I've got so used to all bad stuff happening that now this good thing i dunno it feels like well i guess ii'm kinda starting to feel insecure about it. like "it probably won't last long. I'll do something wrong and it'll all go wrong" "is she just choosing me cause of my history of suicidal tendencies and attempts? does she just not wanna be the person to blame if i did something like that?" It's hard to believe someone would choose me
I've spent so long under a rain cloud it would seem that now anything goo dthat happens is too good to be true. I've had little glimpses of good things over the past few years even small little things but they've never lasted....One last for about a week at the longest