*gives hugs and reassurance* It will be okay in the end. And it's perfectly normal to feel like this honey, you're not a freak or dirty or disgusting or anything bad, I promise you.
You're not making a big deal out of nothing; it's something horrible which happened to you, and anyone would be affected by it still. I know it feels terrible right now; is there anything you can do to try and take your mind off it/relax a little? An activity that calms you down (colouring, watching a favourite film, a relaxing bath?) might help, or alternatively another way to get those strong emotions out in a (healthier) way than self harm - maybe beat up a pillow, or hold ice cubes or draw on yourself in red pen where you want to cut? I sometimes find that scribbling on paper with very bright colours helps a little if you choose the colours you're 'feeling'.
*gentle cuddles* please take care of yourself sweetie; you've been through enough, you don't deserve more pain because of what he did I promise you. xxx
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