[Ktc178]

Hello, everyone. I finally found the courage to post here. Been looking around for a while, but I kind of could use some support/suggestions. I'm a little scared, though.

First, a little bit of background, I'm (almost?) 19, well close enough, and I had a really complicated childhood. I grew up with a mix of my grandparents and older brother. We both spent some time living with our parents after our Grandfather died about three years ago. I spent a lot of time really, really struggling with a mix of self-injury and anorexia. I've been hospitalized, but I eventually gained until I was out of immediate danger. I had many different therapists, psychologists, psychiatrists, and I finally found one who helped a lot. She was wonderful, but soon after turning 18, I decided to move out of the country. I just needed to get out of my surroundings. I really did think it through, but what I didn't realize is that I wasn't recovered. I don't know if I thought that my problems would just dissapear when I left, but now I'm really, really struggling.

I am here totally without support, and I feel really, really alone. I thought I could handle it, but I can't do this alone. I don't know what to do. I've started cutting too deep again, and I'm losing weight again. The most thing that I'm worried about is the self-injury, though. I don't know what to do if it gets dangerous again.

Not sure exactly what I'm asking for, but if anyone has any suggestions, I'd appreciate them! :) Sorry that was a little long!

Thanks, guys!