I'm actually so confused in what I'm thinking.
Like, if I am diagnosed with BPD, it really doesn't change anything. I'll have a name for it, but in the end all it is is choises. You either choose to do unsafe things or you don't. From what I've read all it will accomplish is making it harder to get into a hospital. All the symptoms, it's all things I either choose to do or not to do. If it were Schozophrenia, well then getting a diagnosis could help you so that you know you aren't crazy and that you aren't making it up and that it's real in a way (I'm sorry if this offends anyone!!). With this though, calling it BPD is almost like "allowing" it to happen. I don't think that makes sense. It's like saying that it is acceptable to do all these horrible things because I've been diagnosed. Except at the same time I am trying to do the complete opposite of all the symptoms to prove it doesn't define you as a person. I'm trying to not even talk to the people I have way to close a relationship where i depend on them to much.
I mean, I've been undiagnosed for a physical problem since 2006 and it sucks, but this is different.
Sorry if this makes zero sense!
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