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tamobhuuta · 21-11-2008, 07:09 PM

i've been trying to push them out all week but the thoughts have got further in. even a day for doing it has worked its way in, though i've tried so hard not to even think about it. it's like i have to kill myself, like there's no other option. everything's so clear, it all fits. i want to tell someone because i'm scared but i think it may just be easier to run away and put a stop to all this. i think if i told someone they'd tell me to shut up. i saw K and D from the CMHT last week and at one point they asked about the Voice and i answered them honestly and they stared at me like the biggest freak in the world.

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anyway damn, why am i replying to my own post? i had a point but it's gone... it was um. damn. maybe i want permission to feel like this but not act on it :S

thank you for your reply Jacie, it meant alot and i have been trying to keep it in mind. i hope you don't think my letting things slip further is because i didn't appreciate it or it didn't help.

21-11-2008, 07:09 PM	#3
tamobhuuta Join Date: Jan 2008 Location: U.K.	i've been trying to push them out all week but the thoughts have got further in. even a day for doing it has worked its way in, though i've tried so hard not to even think about it. it's like i have to kill myself, like there's no other option. everything's so clear, it all fits. i want to tell someone because i'm scared but i think it may just be easier to run away and put a stop to all this. i think if i told someone they'd tell me to shut up. i saw K and D from the CMHT last week and at one point they asked about the Voice and i answered them honestly and they stared at me like the biggest freak in the world. The following content has been hidden - Reason : trig sui i'd consider telling them, but if they felt like that about me when i was trying to act normal, imagine how they'd be if i say i spent break today looking for somewhere to hang myself! anyway damn, why am i replying to my own post? i had a point but it's gone... it was um. damn. maybe i want permission to feel like this but not act on it :S thank you for your reply Jacie, it meant alot and i have been trying to keep it in mind. i hope you don't think my letting things slip further is because i didn't appreciate it or it didn't help. Last edited by tamo >bhūtā : 21-11-2008 at 07:13 PM. Reason: hiding a bit
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