Thank you Jess and Secret,
I haven;t been to see a mental health person for five years, last time i did they threatened to section me if i didn't do it voluntarily, after that i never went back to therapy and they never checked up and i went back to pretending everything was fine, i couldn't hurt my family anymore, i hated myself for it.
I need to be there for people not burdening them, like am doing to people here now and am sorry for that but i cant make those words come out in real life it just humiliates me. Anything involving my emotions humiliates me, i know its silly but it does. I might go see the doc next week about some bad face pain I've been having so maybe i could drop in that i haven't been sleeping well, i don't know.
Am just sorry that am like this, that am no good anymore, just selfish and needy.
*cuddles you both* thank you for being there xxx
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