Thank you all so much for your kind words. I wish I knew why or how these panic attacks came on, I went to a therapist when I was younger and she dismissed it as "social anxiety"and said I'd grow out of it. I dunno, though, it feels a lot more sinister than that. Sometimes I lie awake at night thinking so hard I drive myself to tears. I can't stop feeling inadequete, and it sends me into a panic. I feel like I'm losing my marbles. I used to SI when this happened, but I have to stop because I accidentally hurt myself very badly recently and don't want to do it again.
Sorry for the novel, I'm just so bloody pent up lately. Again, thank you for the support. I can't tell you what it means to me, really. You're an amazing lot!
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