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xcrashgirlx · 16-11-2008, 08:43 AM

I made my first cuts after a year free this morning, and now I don't know if I can stop. I have a lot of them now and I still feel disconnected, even though i should be either hurting or crying right now. I moved the location from where I used to SI so none of the people I know IRL can check my old spots, but my arms (where I usually cut) are screaming for it anyway. I want to take a bare blade and just slice down both of my arms, and cross my wrists. To open up my veins and let all of what happened in the past three weeks drain out of me. I swear, my arms are calling for it.

I don't know what to do. I'm afraid to be alone with msyelf right now.

16-11-2008, 08:43 AM	#1
xcrashgirlx Safe//Former Cutter Join Date: Jul 2008 Location: Minnesota, USA I am currently:	Relapsed, I can't stop I made my first cuts after a year free this morning, and now I don't know if I can stop. I have a lot of them now and I still feel disconnected, even though i should be either hurting or crying right now. I moved the location from where I used to SI so none of the people I know IRL can check my old spots, but my arms (where I usually cut) are screaming for it anyway. I want to take a bare blade and just slice down both of my arms, and cross my wrists. To open up my veins and let all of what happened in the past three weeks drain out of me. I swear, my arms are calling for it. I don't know what to do. I'm afraid to be alone with msyelf right now.
	Though your sins are as red as blood, they will be whiter than snow or wool --Isaiah 1:18 Sorrow may last through the night, but joy will come in the morning --Psalm 30:5