i have not self harmed in like almost a year and a half, but i still pay for those days. I self harmed for almost 15 years, started as a teen, and so needless to say i have several severe scars. when people notice, especially medical personnal and such, they begin treating me diffrent. It is obvious that these scars are old, nothing is even remotly fresh, and yet they treat me as if i were still doing it and must be a psycho so many times they act as if the illness I there for is faked or psychsymatic. I had surgery on my hand, carpal tunnel, and when I went to have the sutures looked at because they were seeming infected they actually acused me of having done it and lying about the surgery, they actually tried to have me committed to a psych ward. thank the surgery had been performed at that hospital so that the records were there. they looked it up to prove I was lying but found i was not.
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