Depression by nature makes us believe that we can't recover- feelings of hopelessness, worthlessness- its like when you're at the bottom of a pit you can't see the way out. But the truth is, there are no extremes that are one ended: dark and light, happy and sad, they all coexist so even when you feel like the world is very black, there is always the positive and the happy somewhere.
You can get better Laura, and you will. You are no less able than the people on here and around the world who have sucessfully beaten depression. There is no difference that says you can't and they can. But its about making choices, having the right support around you to give you the courage and the strength to get through. And right now, you're in a new environment, you're coping with the big and scary change of university and new people who may not be in the best position to offer you the support you need, so its understandable you're on a low- and thats before you account for the grief.
Try and make use of the people around you- your doctors, tutors, the counselling service. They are there to listen and to help you feel less alone. You deserve to get better. You can get better. And I do not doubt for a min that you have the strength to come through.
Love you!
xxx
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