*Hugs* I'm sorry you're going through so much right now. You don't have to be ashamed. The road to recovery's a hard one. Everyone here understands. Unfortunately the *real* world isn't always as kind but you shouldn't have to worry about explaining them either. I know how nosy people can be and how seemingly innocent questions about scars can hurt. But in reality it's none of their business and you have every right to tell them so. Or make up some completely outrageous excuse and dare them to challenge it. Most people won't.
I'm sorry you're missing your father so much lately, I understand where you're coming from. My grandmother passed away in march '07 and there are still days when it tears me apart more than usual and I miss her so much I swear I won't survive the pain. I know it hurts like hell and it'll never go away but I promise it'll get a bit easier with time.
Not being able to do much must be hard. Could you do wordsearch or crossword puzzles or listen to music maybe? just something to distract you for a bit. Maybe write, draw or sing to release your pent up emotions? Sorry I'm not being of much help here but I hope you know I really do care and I hope things get better soon. ~Jewel~
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