thanks guys so much for your support, it means so much!
steell maiden, im thinking about your idea of posting a letter to him, cus i dont think i have he stength atm to build up the courage to give it to him, and i think posting it might be alot easier
im also thinking that this time i should write more stuff down, you know, be more honest..cus in the end thats the only way im gonna get help
though im terrified of telling him still. i keep worrying that hes either going to do nothing or completely overreact. and everytime i think about it theres just this voice in my head telling me its pointless, that its been shown noone can help me so whats the point this time..im fighting so hard to battle against this voice..and my paranoia..
i think what i need to do is write a letter and post it..and then think about going to the uni counselling service..maybe? i dunno
sorry for the ramble xx
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