Hey Kim...
I don't really know what to say except I'm sorry it's all so hard and you have EVERY right to rant..anyone would need to with all that going on.
Also, there's no doubt in my mind that you'll make an amazing vet..it's what I always wanted to do and as soon as I realised you actually are a student vet I was kind of..I guess jealous...but anyway you know all your stuff so well, it comes through in your first aid posts and I think you need to give yourself MUCH more credit for all that you do and how well you are managing despite all this physical and mental pain.
I've actually today just been withdrawn from my course ( which I love and has been keeping me going..like you) So I know how scary it is to even be thinking that it might come to that...BUT my Uni are saying they're happy to have me back when I'm well and they've actually been really supportive. So even if it did come to you needing to take another break or something...I'd say just try and remember that won't automatically mean the end of your veterinary career or of everything you've worked so hard for and love so much..
Although..I can't imagine how terrifying it must be to think you could lose your mobility... maybe try not to worry about that unless it actually happens...easy for me to say I know..sorry.
Basically,I have no words, except I hear you and I wanted you to know that I care and I wish you could appreciate how great you are.. more than you seem to.
Go easy on yourself...and I'm hoping so much you have a break soon..
Ruth
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