Thanks both of you.
The college has a counsellor, who I've emailed a few times, but I'm too scared to go to see her. It was kind of like when I was sent to see the school nurse when I was in school, except I'm not forced to go to see the counsellor.
I've decided I am going to go back to college, after a few (rather shocking) words with my mum. I'm also going to ask for help with the stuff I don't know about (mostly physics, it might take a while!).
A lot of things are going on in my life right now, like my psychologist who I've seen for two and a half years is leaving next month, and I'm going to have to see the clinics CPN instead (who has only seen me when I've been really ill). And I know it might not seem like a lot to people, but its my second Christmas free from any type of self harm or psych units and stuff like that soon. Also I've stopped seeing a trainee psychologist who I'd seen for six months and started to trust because she had finished her placement.
By the way SecretMe, I've been mesmerised by your butterfly for ages now!
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