[Mr_X]

this is quite embarassing for me, as i'm sure you will appreciate, but i have problems concentrating and dealing with anxiety that causes nervous tics unless i relieve myself about three times a day. preferrably, i'd rather not have to do it because it's disgusting, but so is taking a dump - doesn't mean i stop doing that too!

ideally i'd have a girlfriend to deal with sexual tension etc. but that aint gonna happen for a little while yet, because i am hardly a pilar of strength right now and i am pretty isolated inside my head, and don't have any acquaintances that like me who are around my age. the people i can confide in are all a lot older than me, and i think thats because of my personality - i act a bit grown up for my age and i'm in tune with things that turn young people off.... but I cannot repress who i am for very long.

i like hard work and deep thought, even reading, to forget my problems - escapism. but just now this inner emotional turmoil and yurning is distracting me and making me forget things.

what can i do? the way things are going i think i might lose my job, and that will make getting a partner and the recovery process even harder. thanks.