[Daydream]

I was just sat surrounded by homework and I felt completely hopeless. Its making me feel unwell. I'm crying because I don't want to go to college anymore, but I dont want to have another year of no friends either. But the work is so much and so hard its making me feel like I want to hurt myself and/or die. The only part I like about the course I'm on is the maths, but its an Access to Maths AND Science. I've already got a GCSE in maths but I'm too thick for A Level and its too late to change course anyways.

The thought of going back to college to a shitload of work is making me want to commit suicide. I know its a stupid thing to be suicidal over but I am. I just want to be back in my school doing GCSEs again, it was so much simpler. I miss my home tutor. My mum said I don't have to stay in college if I don't want to, but she said it in such a tone as that she would be really disappointted in me if I did drop out. Dying is so much simpler than all of this. This isn't a goodbye, this is me asking for help.