Okay, so today I feel a bit better. Kept myself busy - cleaned the kitchen, hoovered the kitchen/lounge/hall etc [only the bathroom to do now] but it's still there in the back of my mind.
I have this insane, probably paranoid, fear that everyone I love is going to leave me. It's driving them away and it's making me seriously seriously ill. I don't know how to cope with it. I think of it and I just start crying and then having a panic attack [at least I think that's what it is] and it's so ****ing horrible and the worst bit is that it's a self fulfilling prophecy.
I don't know what to do.
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