I had to do something tonight, so I went for the 'safer' option and cut. Ended up at hospital to get stitches.
I feel so guilty that my son had to come to the hospital with me while I got stitched up. I don't want this continuing when he's old enough to understand why mummy is in the hospital. That's got to be my motivation. I asked Rusty to remind me of that feeling next time I want to harm.
I'm at the day unit tmorrow so I'll speak to someone then, and take any help they offer me.
I'm currently feeling very tearful, ashamed, guilty and angry at myself. And sore, because the local's wearing off now.
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