Thank you.
Its hard not to feel that I fail at everything I touch. Like reverse Midas touch. I see that I don't. I am doing my best to accept that with all of me.
And, Matthew, yes, I do see how it really helped in lots of ways. The teacher training was a good foundation for self observation and reflective learning. And I certainly wouldn't have traded my 2nd year at uni just doing English. It was wonderful.
I do have some good memories.
And I am working my way through the difficult times, untangling myself from them, my integrity and self-respect.
I think gaining enhanced self-respect is the key.
That is what is lacking, has been lacking all along.
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