[Misunderstood.]

Making these kind of discoveries is good I think but at the same time I can understand when you say how vulnerable it must be making you feel at the moment. You have a lot of strength to be doing what you are and I really admire you for that.
Reading your R/V thread, as well as your other threads makes me think that you are at a real turning point at the moment and these things take courage such as you seem to have boundless amounts of.
{leaves a few hugs should you want them}