*Hugs* Im sorry your having such strong urges. Keep fighting through these urges, you can get through this. If you have any pills in front of you its best to put them some where where you cant see them or get rid of them. Having pills out in front of you will only make you want to od even more.
Try to keep yourself distracted as much as possible here is a link to the fun and distractions forum
http://www.recoveryourlife.com/forum...splay.php?f=22 and this is the big distractions page
http://www.recoveryourlife.com/forum...ead.php?t=1403 Do you have any support? I there anyone you can talk to about how you feel? Is anyone aware you feel this way? Please keep safe, we alll really care about you.
Take care best wishes Ian