I undtertsand what you mean.
I don't paticulary like to be centre of attention but i often find myself wanting to gain attention especially from professionals. I guess we kinda want somoene to care...and i guess if you've been ill so long you lose yourself in the illness, you feel like you've become that illness like people only know you for that illness so what would you do without the illness? I don't think it's really about attention as such it's more to do with the fact that well lets face it EVERYONE in the world needs some kind of attention otherwise we'd just be lonely. But i think this is more of a confidence and self esteem issue. It's like "No one will like me for my personalyty but people will pay attention to me if i'm ill. If i behave this way, if i do this if they see this they will pay me attention" Cause you don't feel you personality is worth it cause you don't have enough confidence.
"I don't know where i went so please know my illness recognise my illness but please don't recognise me"
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