he called again
8 times during the night
no talking...just breathing down the phone
I don't hang up though...I wait till he does...he calls less if I answer but thats not the real reason I pick up is it!
I miss him...he hurt me but I miss him..his the only person I let get close to me since my SA and assault and then he hurt me too...not in the same way but enough to put me right back to the start...enough to leave me with scars...enough to get me to close up forever
it hurts...why does it still hurt? why can't I move on?