welcome to the thread whirlpools! :) ask loads of questions and share how you experience stuff and you'll likely get feedback from folks that can demistify what's going on for you
one source which may be interesting is
http://strangerinthemirror.com/
on a personal note i am bricking it. i'm seeing the head psychologist tomorrow and me and others are getting really nervous. i'm going on my own and i'm starting to feel really flakey and the last thing i want is to be bullied
feels like something is kicking off inside and i'm feeling really lonely and scared
feels weird and shaming writing this down