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It doesn't hurt any more - dissociation?
I was in hospital after an overdose last month. The reason I overdosed was that I tried to cut but it just didn't hurt enough. I was in a crisis situation - that happens every 6 weeks or so when I'm just so incredibly down that I attempt suicide or cut several times a day or whatever.
So I'm back in that position right now. I'm on a serious downer...this is one of the worse I've ever had. Feel close to suicide to be honest. I've been cutting several times a day. But this time, the cuts aren't hurting. They hurt afterwards but not while I'm doing it. Sometimes I feel like it's not my arm or my leg that I'm cutting.
My cuts have always hurt before, but I have had experiences with finding cuts later which I don't remember making and stuff.
To be honest I'm a bit scared.
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