today i'm no better. not wanting to take food or water or meds. my wife sometimes makes me but when she's at work i won't take anything. this afternoon i took a razor blade and cut my wrist. it's patched up now and i am wearing a long sleeve t shirt because i hate people knowing about it and judging me. my wife will be extremely angry at me when she finds out. now i have no energy and can barely get out of bed. when i left the house this morning i felt like i was going to collapse. i don't have the energy or the will to go on with life. i'm not needed here and my death will be a massive relief to everyone. i have no chance of getting anywhere and there's only one way out for me.
worthless, pathetic and mental nathan
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