[Heidi Tiger]

Hi,

I was wondering if anyone had taken an antipsychotic as the result of a fear as this is something that has been mentioned for me.

Basically I have an irrational fear of vampires (even typing the word is making me cringe), now I "know" they're not real, but I sort of can't believe that they aren't, if that makes any sense at all. It causes quite a large impact on me currently as I get very scared at night, can't sleep in the dark/sleep at all or with my window open and have to have my neck covered. I also can't go out on my own at night, especially if I smell of blood.

The other night I self-harmed and needed stitches. Somehow I managed to force myself to go to A+E as it wasn't that late, but then it was walking back. I made myself walk home in the dark as punishment for being daft and going too far with my self-harm. I was terrified all the way back, I could physically feel something hovering above me. I also walked past a woman who made the sign of the cross as I passed like she was warding off evil. These past few nights my fear has been heightened because of this, also my bedroom window was left open by someone when we had a houseparty on saturday night, and this makes me feel my room is no longer safe. I also have a weird tingling feeling on my neck all the time, though it's worse at night.

There also was an incident a few weeks back where a man grabbed me when I was walking around bleeding. Everyone tells me he was real as I had bruises on my wrist, however part of me still thinks he was undead.

I know this is long, but I sort of wanted to try explain how much this fear is impacting on my life. I guess I just wanted to know if anyone else has taken an antipsychotic for a phobia, if so how did it help? Is this a usual treatment? Or has anyone tried psychological things such as CBT and if so were they effective? I just can't see how an antipsychotic is used on someone who isn't psychotic and I can't find any useful info on this online.
Thanks for reading my long ramble!
xxx