[Jay603]

Update

So this hasn’t gone so well. I saw her, for the first time since last Sunday when she told me about the nightmares. She where’s a bandana around her wrist and she said it was for work, made sense to me. We were on the couch I got up to use the bathroom I came back and she had the bandana off and that is when I saw the cuts in her wrist. I couldn’t even think. I asked her for a hug and asked why. She turned away. I asked if it was because of me leaving every week. She nodded yes. Then I told her that I didn’t want to hurt her anymore. I told her that she had a the choice, We could stay together and I could help her get through this, Or I would only leave one more time, we would be friends and I would still help her through this.

Either way I want her to be done with all this SI, I love this girl as friend; maybe some day as a partner too.

I told her that she didn’t have to make the choice right there. I talked to her today and she is going to call me tonight with an answer.

I told her to make the choice that would hurt her less. I figured that if this SI was about control then I should give her the control here. I told her that as well.

I just feel like I’ve hurt her more than help her, that was never my intention. The whole reason I talked to her after camp was to see if I could help her.

I think she’ll chose to be friends and if she is on the fence that is the one I want her to chose. I want her to be happy.

I guess I will know in a few hours, it’s so hard to wait for this.

Thanks for a place to put this.