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charlieglasgow · 11-10-2008, 09:24 PM

Oh the day when I move out. I'm looking so forward to that glorious day.

What am I supposed to do?!?!

She says I cannot afford to move out.

I've lied to her about the jobs. I've been extremely lazy this past week.

I lied to her about YCC having called me back. I haven't even applied. I was deescalating her mood. Which I've taken on as my job. Hopefully as soon as I get hired I can apply at Casper Village and GET OUT NOW. I wish there were apartments to go to who would take you in because of abuse. gr.

I read the sticky about the abuse encyclopedia, and read the website about abusive mothers. shane had guilted me for considering her abusive. that website is so comforting, strangely. because it's like our relationship.

i have lied to her. a lot. as a tactic to NOT go where I don't want it to go.

I need out. soon. I know it's a lie. She says I'm about as responsible as a 12 year old and I'm just going to have to learn to live by her rules because I can't afford to move out because thats just the way it is.

And the RULES KEEP CHANGING. Constantly. I can't keep up and subsequently feel inadequate. NOT MY FAULT.

she's messed up my life enough.

i know i'm more grown up then her. in ways.
i need to be out.
on my own.
no roommates. my own apartment. to heal.

11-10-2008, 09:24 PM	#1
charlieglasgow bedlam publishing journalist :) Join Date: Sep 2008 Location: Casper, Wyoming I am currently:	what was I supposed to do? Oh the day when I move out. I'm looking so forward to that glorious day. What am I supposed to do?!?! She says I cannot afford to move out. I've lied to her about the jobs. I've been extremely lazy this past week. I lied to her about YCC having called me back. I haven't even applied. I was deescalating her mood. Which I've taken on as my job. Hopefully as soon as I get hired I can apply at Casper Village and GET OUT NOW. I wish there were apartments to go to who would take you in because of abuse. gr. I read the sticky about the abuse encyclopedia, and read the website about abusive mothers. shane had guilted me for considering her abusive. that website is so comforting, strangely. because it's like our relationship. i have lied to her. a lot. as a tactic to NOT go where I don't want it to go. I need out. soon. I know it's a lie. She says I'm about as responsible as a 12 year old and I'm just going to have to learn to live by her rules because I can't afford to move out because thats just the way it is. And the RULES KEEP CHANGING. Constantly. I can't keep up and subsequently feel inadequate. NOT MY FAULT. she's messed up my life enough. i know i'm more grown up then her. in ways. i need to be out. on my own. no roommates. my own apartment. to heal.