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Steel Maiden · 11-10-2008, 02:31 PM

As you know I have paranoid schizophrenia.

I've been looking at my mental state over the past six years (going back through my memories etc) and I observe that I have progressively got worse and worse over these six years.

Teenage angst to depression to self-harm and suicide attempts to psychotic episodes to schizophrenia.

That's pretty much how it goes.

I used to be 95% well in between my psychotic episodes and my psychotic episodes were not as bad as they are these days. Now I am only 50% well in between psychotic episodes and the 3 most recent ones have been really severe.

My point is is that even though I am on 25mg of olanzapine, I am getting more and more problems mentally every week.

Is schizophrenia degenerative? Can it just get worse and worse despite medical intervention? Will I end up residential in a psychiatric ward in a permanent psychotic state?

I'm really scared because every month my mental health gets relatively worse.

I'm scared that the schizophrenia will take me over and ruin my life for good. It feels like a growing parasite in my body.

11-10-2008, 02:31 PM	#1
Steel Maiden There is no place like 127.0.0.1 Join Date: Sep 2007 Location: London	Schiz. just getting worse and worse... As you know I have paranoid schizophrenia. I've been looking at my mental state over the past six years (going back through my memories etc) and I observe that I have progressively got worse and worse over these six years. Teenage angst to depression to self-harm and suicide attempts to psychotic episodes to schizophrenia. That's pretty much how it goes. I used to be 95% well in between my psychotic episodes and my psychotic episodes were not as bad as they are these days. Now I am only 50% well in between psychotic episodes and the 3 most recent ones have been really severe. My point is is that even though I am on 25mg of olanzapine, I am getting more and more problems mentally every week. Is schizophrenia degenerative? Can it just get worse and worse despite medical intervention? Will I end up residential in a psychiatric ward in a permanent psychotic state? I'm really scared because every month my mental health gets relatively worse. I'm scared that the schizophrenia will take me over and ruin my life for good. It feels like a growing parasite in my body.
	PM me if you want a PDF copy of the ICD-10 or the Mental Health Act 1983/2007. I ALSO HAVE THE DSM-V BOOK and am a pharmacology student. I have a visual impairment / neurological problems so I need people to type in clear text and no funny fonts. Also excuse any typos, my vision blocks things out. I have autism and have problems communicating, PMs included. Just becasue I type well doesn't mean I speak well. I am only part time verbal.