If you've got everything you want then I've got a feeling you're still feeling as bad as you are because of the depression in itself. It's a chemical imbalance and sometimes nothing in your life, good as it may seem to others or good as you might've thought it'd make you feel; will make you feel any better. Because it's circumstantial.
Do you see a doctor about the depression?
Might be an idea to see about going on an anti-depressent..
..just a thought.
{hug}
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