oh hunni...
PLEASE PM me anytime.
i can relate.
my son turned 11 this year. he lives 600 miles away with my aunt and uncle. i wasnt there for his birthday. i havent seen him since March and wont see him until christmas.
i sent him away at 5 years old due to my dissociations. i was so afraid something would happen to him while i was in a dissociative state. he was only to stay with them for 3 months while i went into the hospital to get better.
it didnt happen that way. i plummeted without my little boy.
i have had to make the decision now to let him stay there until hes grown because that is his environment and i wont uproot him again.
i know the CONSTANT ache. it hurts so so much.
please know im thinking of you.
PM me if you ever need or want to talk.
i know how it feels...i really do....its one of my biggest struggles.
much much love.
xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
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