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irrational fear
I don't know why I keep posting on here.
I have to tell somebody. I have to get this out in the open no matter how ridiculous it sounds to me. I don't know if I'm alone in this or not, but I have an intense and irrational fear of getting pregnant. I am taking birth control (and I have to take it right at the same time every night or I start getting worried) and I haven't had sex yet, but like....I don't know. I worry even about touching of any kind, and even now I'm a little worried about it although I logically know there is a very, very low probability since I have been taking the pill religiously (haven't missed one this month, but I was 20 minutes late on taking one of them). I don't know. If I got pregnant, it would literally be the end of the world for me. It's my biggest fear right now, despite all it's irrationalities. I don't know what to do. Should I just not ever have sex? I want to, I love the person I am dating right now and we're in a committed relationship but I'm so afraid of getting pregnant...
Hopefully somebody has some advice for me. I hope people at least read this. I need something to put my mind at ease. Anything.
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