What makes you upset that they care?
Like, could you pinpoint exactly what makes you upset?
They don't see you as a failure - if this was the case, they wouldn't be so loving/caring/clingy towards you.
I don't believe they want you to feel guilty either about being the way you are.
But i DO understand how difficult it is to change your mindset.
Are you particularly close to your family? I mean, were you before all of this?
I'm not particularly close to my family at all, and they haven't changed the way they treat me since they've found out about everything, although after my last suicide attempt 2 weeks ago, i came home from hospital to find my room had been pretty much stripped from top to bottom of all "tools", and my parents were particularly clingy for a week or so refusing to leave me on my own. I found i got more upset with them being clingy, than i did when they showed they didn't care. But then, when they stop being clingy..it makes me feel alone. So i can't really win!
I think it's difficult with people who don't necessarily understand how people with mental illnesses cope/feel. I think as your older sister has a son with similar problems to you..she understands more than the rest of your family, so she doesn't feel like she has to somewhat walk on eggshells around you.
But as the rest of your family aren't aware, it might be difficult for them to know how you want them to be around you.
Have you considered writing them a letter explaining how you don't want to be treated differently, but you know that they're there for you?
*hugs*
Keep your chin up hun
Sorry if anything i've said doesn't make sense!
xxx
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