I had to read you post a few times to make sure that I hadn't written it in my sleep or something weird like that. I was the EXACT same way. For me it was wanting to be part of the action, being bored, and wanting to have meaning in my life - even if that meant that it came from someone else.
So I kind of took the drastic route and went back to school to be an EMT. Now I'm in an ambulance 24/7/365.
So, yea that cured that issue.
I would find other ways to take care of yourself. Take an hour a day to do something that you like. Don't just take a walk around your neighborhood, but go to the park and find a favorite place. Or if you're in it for the adreneline go to an amusement park and ride some rollercoasters or if that really just doesn't cut it, skydive.
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