I think it shows that you want to be taken care of, everyone has basic human needs, including needing to be taken care of. I have thought the same things as you have described, and I know others have to, so there is no way you're a 'freak'
Ambulances to many people symbolise something, rescue, help, support, dependancy etc.
There is nothing attention seeking about your thoughts, its entirly natural to want to be cared for.
*hugs*
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