[Misunderstood.]

So I have an urgent psych app. for Tuesday as don't feel I can carry on how I have been until the next scheduled app. in Novemeber. I know it may not have seemed like I'd need an emergency app., or mebbe it has lol but I tend to keep most of my cards close to my chest and find it very difficult to open up to anyone nevermind here. I rele wish i could tho because i can see how benefitting it is. And I rele also feel here is where i'd be understood!
I've to write a list of symptoms as advised by a friend instead of going and asking for a specific medication like i was going to bcso he didnt think the psych would like that.
before i write here what i feel are my symptoms i was wondering if ppl could write here if u notice anything when i post here and there. mood swings or changes in behaviour, a certain way i type or what have u.. ur perspective will mean an awful lot. i dont mind if it makes me look bad or good i rele dont mind bcos i know its bcos im ill atm.
just anything that makes me seem not qquite as well as i could be and why..if iv pulled off seeming well here as well then strange as it may sound i dont like that i manage to have that front up anywhere. its ingrained.

Thank you all in advance.
if i havent made sense let me know.