I am BPD and I am hopelessly dependant on my therapist and GP and I have certainly been nasty to my therapist even to the point of leaving nast messages on her answer phone, but would be devastated if she dumped me.
I had the feelings you discribe about my last GP who finally dumped me last summer because of it. I'm afraid I'm not much help as I am still trying to come to terms with it, I tried to get her struck off. I think that BPD just makes us hopeless cases, certainly does me. I hope that at some point therapy will help.
I find it impossible to talk about feelings like this in therapy and if you can then it is probably the only way you are going to be able to get past it
Sorry for not being any help
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