hey my lovely,
you do deserve friends, you deserve everything, to be happy and no hurting anymore. Im sorry things are so hard atm. I know what you mean, i really do, when im not cutting in ODing, or harming in some other way.
I dont want to tell my mum that i am still struggling, but maybe you could just have a general chat, about underlying probs, like maybe self esteem or something. Although my mum doesnt know the half of it i felt better for saying to her 'I am ok, but im still not feeling myself' Its hard when friends are pressuring you, im lying to my friends to, cos it was thru my best friend my mum found out. But its because they care, and dont really understand why we do this to ourselves.
Maybe if you dont feel you can chat to anyone you know and tell them to truth, you could call a helpline for a chat? i did that the other week, and they were really helpful at just chatting through my feelings.
Take care of yourself, and keep fighting, you arent weak at all.
im always around online so PM me or add me to msn if you want someone to chat to :)xxxx
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