holidays are typically hard for many people, due to the anxiety, stress, and the whole idea of looking forward to it and then it letting you down. christmas is hard for me for example, cause it was on christmas that i first cut. and i dislike thinking of my 18th birthday cause i spent it in the hospital, after me and my friends were all trying to do something cool for it and had plans to get my navel pierced and so forth. so does it have to do with past experiences like i was talking about in the latter part, or is it more just the fact that it's a holiday, a supposedly special day where you feel obligated to feel happy, even if you're not type of thing? that might help you out a bit.
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