I've spent almost four months in an adolescent unit and I've missed out on a lot...half my exams, the last day at my (now previous) school, the prom, most of my summer. It honestly has saved my life but I fear I'm becoming institutionalised and like one of the doctors has said to me, hospital isn't reality. It feels weird knowing I'm going to be discharged this thursday and having to return to some kind of 'normality' because as a result of it I'm now even more crap in social situations and anxious doing everyday things most people wouldn't think twice about.
1:1 obs are the WORST. I was on them for around three weeks and hated every minute of them, then a few weeks later got placed on them for a week again. Luckily I got away with not being on full bathroom obs but even someone sitting outside the door is intrusive considering you have to keep in constant verbal contact. I want to wee and shower in peace :(
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