Aye, I also feel hospital traumatised me, and made me a lot worse. Or who I became whilst there was a lot worse. Now with the home treatment team and such I've managed to stay out for about 7 months now. I don't really want to talk about my experiences (seeing people try to kill themselves being a few of them also) but...
One of my problems is that I can't let go. I have intrusive memories of it all the time, I think up letters in my head or even write them down to the wards I was in, I can't let go. I'm working on this with my therapist at the moment and I really hope I will be able to move on properly. But it sucks. I wish I'd never gone into hospital in teh first place, being put on a section on my 17th birthday (it was only 72hours but still) and all that stuff makes you sit and wonder what happened to the 'best' years of your life.
Do you find it hard to let go?
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